I am totally blessed because God has healed my heart by blessing us with Lakyn and wow, look at His timing. While I still miss Jay's presence and spirit so so much and still get sad when I think too hard about her, I could have never imagined just how much God would bless me through out it all. My heart is so full and content that I can't even put words to it. I look at Lay and I smile from ear to ear. She's amazing and out of everything that could have gone wrong with her, nothing did. We're simply blessed. Tonight as I was studying the book of Luke I read about Zechariah and Elizabeth:
Zechariah and Elizabeth tried for years to have a baby but just couldn't. Zechariah was a priest and one day in his old age was chosen to go into the temple to burn incense. It is during this time that an angel of the Lord appeared before him to tell him that his prayer had been answered and he and his wife were going to bear a son. He had to be CHOSEN.
Sometimes we have to be handpicked and chosen by God to endure certain circumstances and situations. If we are never handpicked and chosen than how do we expect God to prepare us for the blessing? The point is, we can't always look at our life's circumstances and situations and ask God why?? Instead we have to learn to look at them and know there's a blessing out there with our name on it. We all are handpicked and chosen for something in our lives by God at some point whether we realize it or not. The question is are we ready? At this moment I am so thankful that I was handpicked and chosen by God for this journey and didn't miss out on this sweet, sweet blessing. I am constantly in awe of Him and His love for us. I'm confident that He felt that huge void in my heart this time last year and He heard my prayer. 1 John 5:14 says that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. Thank you Lord for using me as your vessel, hearing my prayer and blessing me in return. God is certainly Good!
