Love...

I won't be overwhelmed...

What a marvelous day.  Today we got out and went to church for the first time since Baby Jay entered the world and it was great.  Michael had to attend our church because he does our Sight and Sound ministry. My friend Brandy and I, along with the kids visited New Life Church here in Conway and it was a wonderful service in which Jay slept through the whole service.    One of NLC praise songs really ministered to me, it's called God I look to you and it says "God I look to You, I won't be overwhelmed, Give me vision to see things like You do, God I look to You, You're where my help comes from, Give me wisdom, You know just what to do, I will love You Lord my strength, And I will love you Lord my shield, And I will love You Lord my rock, Forever all my days I will love you God, Hallelujah our God reigns, Hallelujah our God reigns, Hallelujah our God reigns, Forever all my days Hallelujah."  During the service a lady sitting a few chairs down from Baby Jay came to say hi during the welcome service and took a peek at Baby Jay in her carseat.  She asked how old she was and I told her six weeks not knowing what she was thinking while observing her cleft lip.  After the service was over she came back over and said, "I'm sorry I didn't introduce myself to you, my name is Gina and I to have a child with a disability.  My son was born deaf and he's 34 years old now.  It introduced me to a different world and I had to learn a lot of sign language.  Currently he and his wife along with my two grandchildren are on a mission taking songs and messages and putting them into videos by sign language for other deaf people."  She said "God wanted me to let you know that He's going to use you and your baby to do His work and just like me you're going to have to go through some things, but He's going to use you both."  It gave me chills.  Here this lady was that didn't know a thing about me or Baby Jay, but yet she allowed God to use her to bless me.  God knew just what I needed to hear and I praise His name for it.  Bowing before the King.  God is good.

Still expecting great things...

Although we've had a pretty good day, Baby Jay has had her share of apnea tonight.  You can tell she's trying to breathe because her body is moving but she's not making that connection to exchange that breath.  We've put her back on the oxygen and it's amazing what it does to her.  She wakes up instantly and today she started making noises as if she wanted to talk :).  We will continue to go to the Father, boldly before His throne asking specifically that He continues to breathe life into her.  With Him we can't go wrong.  Lord please let your strength be made perfect in my weakness.  She's beginning to take 3 oz bottles which we're ecstatic about.  I can definitely tell that she's gaining weight because the newborn pampers that she started off wearing in the hospital are now beginning to fit snug.  She's blessing us everyday and we're loving her everyday.  Monday is coming sooner than I want it to.  Praising God that my valley isn't dark but full of light because Jesus is walking with me through it and His light shines so bright.  We are more than conquerors.  We will continue to take it day by day and allow God to work in Baby Jay's life day by day.  We will continue to expect great things and stand firm on His word for it won't return void. Praying that God touches Baby Jay from head to toe and make her well and whole. All things are possible for he that believes.  Lord I believe.  God is good.