The things I see...

Baby Jay is doing great as always Praise God.  I'm thankful that we hadn't needed the oxygen machine for several days now, what a great blessing!  Sometimes when she's awake she stares so deep into my eyes and I stare so deep into her eyes.  It feels like she can see my soul and I can see her soul.  There's so much character in her soul.  So much life.  I see lots of strength and so much more that I just can't put my finger on but I trust God to show me in due time all that there is to know about her.  It's very much a sense of warmth that overtakes me.  Something that I just don't know if I can live without.  When I sing and talk about Jesus to her it seems as if she already knows Him but wants to know more.  I'm thankful to God for our connection and bond as any parent would be.  I just want to be everything to her that God wants me to be.  I want to hurt for her, I want to breathe for her and while I know I can't physically do those things I do know that I can love and embrace her to no end.  My prayer today is that she will one day know just how much I love her and will love me back.  Trusting the King who's ruler of all.  God is good.