From the beginning to end...

Another lesson for me today is that when God uses us to complete His work He will give us every possible resource needed to finish the work.  When we found out we were pregnant with Jaylan we honestly didn't know where the money would come from to care for a third child.  I never had a baby shower because we weren't for sure if she would live after birth and we didn't want anyone to waste their money.  But Oh how God works.  We didn't have to purchase hardly a thing.  For 13 weeks with no baby shower we didn't have to purchase hardly a thing not even the cost of her daycare.  We didn't breastfeed, and we didn't apply for WIC.  God supplied the milk.  She didn't go without a single thing that a baby typically needs.  God supplied everything from the beginning to the end, including the cost of her memorial service.  He says "I am the Alpha, the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last."  When God uses us to complete His work He will give us every possible resource needed to finish the work.  Psalm 23:1 says, "The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want".  We didn't have to want for a thing.  His grace IS sufficient and His grace got us through it.  You see God is a real God and He's a serious God.  God don't play and God don't half do things.  When God does something, He goes all the way.  When God has an assignment to be completed He will allow nothing to get in the way of the assignment being completed.  God is the God of all, money is nothing to Him.  Why are we so afraid to be used by God, not that we would admit it. Don't we trust Him?? Lord you know I don't deserve your goodness, but I thank you.  Thank you for showing up.  Thank you for showing out.  Thank you for being you.  You are God! God is good!

My angel in disguise...

One thing that I have now learned is that when God puts something in your heart He will confirm it if you allow Him too.  In the blog entry on August 7th, I stated "Sometimes when she's awake she stares so deep into my eyes and I stare so deep into her eyes.  It feels like she can see my soul and I can see her soul.  There's so much character in her soul.  So much life.  I see lots of strength and so much more that I just can't put my finger on but I trust God to show me in due time all that there is to know about her.  When I sing and talk about Jesus to her it seems as if she already knows Him but wants to know more."  I've had a feeling about her for a couple of days now.  My feeling was confirmed by God through a good friend of mine as well as an uncle.  I feel that Jay knew for herself the real purpose that she was here.  She knew she was here on assignment and she knew that she only had 13 weeks to complete it.  Jaylan was an angel in disguise.  She wasn't meant to be here any longer than she was.  She was on a mission for the kingdom of GLORY.  I felt like I was staring into her soul because I was.  I could see her strength because it was really there.   She listened to the stories about Jesus, because she already knew Him.  She was one of God's angels in disguise.  She knew.  We were chosen.  I can't put into words the overwhelming feeling that floods into my heart for being chosen.  The intimacy of His presence.  The realness of His work.  The MIGHTINESS of His power.  I cry tears of thankfulness because I don't know what else to do.  I'm so not worthy Lord.  I'm so not worthy, but I am thankful. You just never know when you're in the presence of His angels. God is good!