Lord please fill the void...

We went to visit Jay's resting place today.  There's something about knowing that she's back home with God.  Most people don't know but we buried her in between my grandparents.  I can see them greeting her at heaven's gates.  I know she's even more spoiled up there, than she was down here.  Braylan's finally starting to ask "where is jay jay".  I told him we were going to visit her today and when we got to the cemetery he kept saying "mama where's jay".  I showed him where she was buried and I told him Jay was in heaven with God,  he said "jay come here".  Bless his heart one day he'll understand.  I ate lunch the other day at school with Raghan and her friends kept asking if Raghan really had a baby sister that died.  Raghan whispered across the table, "there was an angel in her body".  Priceless.  There doing so well and I'm so thankful to God for it.   I know He's giving them peace just like He's giving us. It makes me sad to think that one day Bray won't remember her since he's so young.  I pray that God continues to fill the void that's been left in my heart.  I trust that He can and I trust that He will in due time.  I find myself waking up during the night thinking about her because every night for 13 weeks I'd stare into her face as she slept between Michael and I.  Feels so weird for her not to be there.  Our bed feels empty.  I miss her and I vision her all through out the day in our home or in the car.  I haven't taken any of her clothes out of the closet yet or put up any of her things.   Although I have a bit of an empty feeling inside of me I know God is the King of Comfort and He hasn't failed me yet.  I trust Him.  I trust Him to continue to make me whole and to continue to move me into the position He has planned for me.  Missing and loving my sweet precious baby girl aka "my angel in disguise" but I know God got this one too.  God is good.