Beauty for Ashes...

For when I am weak, I am strong.  2 Corinthians 12:10.   In this race called life, God gives us situations to transform us.  The opportunities are there but the choice is ours.   As I run this race the good Lord has set before me, I tend to gain more endurance as His plans for my life come together.  I think about Jay every morning, every day, every night.  I still sleep with her blanket that we wrapped her in so many times under my pillow.  Her lunch bag of bottles still hang by the door.  Her baby bag is still packed and hangs in my closet.  I can't believe how fast her first birthday is approaching.  I can't believe it's been almost a year when it clearly still feels like yesterday.  God is still so good.  I'm breathing again, with deep breaths, but I'm breathing.  I'm smiling more, sometimes through tears but I'm smiling.  I'm living with joy, one day at a time, but I'm living.  This is the year, it's definitely the year...Beauty for Ashes.